First off, let me tell you I've been up since 4:30 am thinking I was dying.
For a couple weeks now, I've had this sensation of something stuck in my throat, right behind my breast bone---Its so weird. I would always be more aware of it at night, and it started to occur to me that the sensation was getting worse with each passing day.
Within the last few days, the feeling has expanded into this horrible tightening of the chest/feeling like I can't get a whole breathe in.
I'm good at ignoring my illnesses/ailments and not saying anything to anyone while I'm suffering, until its unbearable....and last night it became unbearable.
So around 5:15am, onto to the horrible world wide web I went.
First I thought I had a tumor, then cancer, then heart disease, then a thyroid disease, maybe even the early signs of a heart attack, to now----a phone call from my lovely friend, Kelsey, has lead me to believe I have really bad case of acid reflux.
Hallelujah!...because I am no longer writing out love notes to my family.
But why is this even relevant enough to blog about??
Because oddly enough during my horrifying hours on google this morning (really, google is a horrible place to go when thinking you're sick-stick with phone calls), I kept thinking of my readers.
In the last few weeks (especially) I have gotten such amazing Emails. A lot of the current mail relates to MY RULE OF 3's post, but they are all the type of E mails that stop me in my tracks and give me tingles to my toes. I often feel like the people who write in to me are much greater writers, mothers, and young women than I ever was or am....and they are, in fact, giving me much more than they think I am giving them.
I'm just so grateful for you! Really, I am. It may sound corny, but its the truth- and its time I say it out loud. So, thank you--thanks for making me feel like I have a million and more best friends ranging from every age, and in all corners of the country. Its something I know is special, and I want you all to know I don't take it for granted.
...now, if only we could all figure out a way to go to lunch together one day...